I Am Woman Hear Me … wimper
I have a “beautiful” uterus and my tubes look “great” and my bloodwork, aside from the minor thyroid problem, is “all very normal.”
I find this all very upsetting.
I wanted them to find something aside from slightly elevated TSH levels. I wanted there to be something to fix.
I must say that after a natural miscarriage, an HSG is nothing. I had a teeny, weeny little bit of cramping during the procedure, and some noticeable cramping after I laid down to sleep off the hydrocodone, but all and all it was not so bad.
I am still waiting to get the results back of the karyotyping, both embryonic and parental. I am still going to take the “magical anti-miscarriage potion” of progesterone + baby aspirin + Lovenox. I was so sure, given my family history and my own health, that this was an autoimmune problem. I wanted them to find something — even a fibroid or two — that could easily explain the two miscarriages. Instead, it looks like we are in the “unknown” group and, quite frankly, I don’t really like the “unknown” group. It is too, well, ambiguous and non-commital for my tastes.
So what to most people is probably good news has left me a little sad. Not up-my-Prozac-dose sad, but sad because we are still no closer to a healthy baby. Sad because I am cleared to start trying again next month and I do not feel like there is anything I can do to actively prevent another miscarriage.
And sad because I have red dye running out of my bajingo.
July 18, 2007. Trying Again.