Lather, Rinse, Repeat Mantra
Dr. Google is a bastard. A BASTARD, I tell you.
Some doctors in his group say a beta of 25 is needed to confirm pregnancy; others say 10. Some say the “average” for 12 dpo is 50; others say only the rate of increase matters.
Here is what I am doing: trying not to think about it.
My new mantra:
I have no control over the ultimate outcome of this pregnancy.
This is happening at a cellular level and is not yet even visible to the naked eye.
I am doing absolutely everything I can do, which in the scheme of things is not much, to ensure a healthy pregnancy.
I had to test early, in order to know when to start the RPL (recurrent pregnancy loss) protocols. I was not a masochist on purpose.
I was actually getting hopeful, because I had a wave of nausea and increased boob soreness. Then I remembered that I am on progesterone. Rats.
I can’t take the HCG injections until after Wednesday (beta #2 is scheduled for 8:45AM), because, obviously, it will negate the beta. If the beta is good, I start the HCG injections (twice a week) and that will forever end my POAS obsession.
I have taken 12 pregnancy tests and several OPKs.
I am not doing a good job of not thinking about it, am I?
(MANTRA. Lather, rinse, REPEAT.)