End of the Line
I am slowly starting to freak out. I am fighting it and doing a miserable job.
In both my previous pregnancies, I had way more nausea than this, even with the blighted ovum. With pregnancy #2, when my hormone levels were normal even though the embryonic heart was not, I was puking by this point.
My boob are not as sore today. The gagginess is not as severe. I have very mild cramps on and off, but nothing very noteworthy. The only “pregnant” symptoms I have are that I am utterly exhausted and feel like I am emotionally falling apart.
The Plan has ceased to be a source of comfort because I am not sure that the lines are still getting darker. Granted, I am 30-31dpo (6w2-3d), and pregnancy tests, much like Niobe suggested, may have a maximum darkness. I just can’t tell anymore.
My 6.5 week ultrasound is 37.5 hours away. Everytime I think about it, all the blood runs out of my head and I feel faint with dread.
I feel like I have managed to hold it together for over two weeks, and now I am entitled to completely lose my shit.
So please excuse me while I go completely lose my shit.